It Can Happen to You

Being that I am now an ATR, I've actually contemplated changing the blog's name. I mean "A Day in the Life of a NYC Teacher"  doesn't seem to be truthful considering the menial tasks I have been performing this school year.

But, I'm not. I'm still a teacher and I will not let this ATR business bring me down. I'm scheduled to be at the present site till October 16th, unless the powers that be make a change.

Every day last week, I entered the school with my head held high. I made eye contact with everyone that passed by me. I smiled at the students and made small talk. It wasn't as bad as some other ATRs have it.

Sure, the first day I spent it on the phone making calls to parents regarding their kid's attendance. Then, the second and third day were spent handing out metro cards and on the fourth day, I was once again on the phone calling parents about a Meet and Greet tomorrow.

It could have been worse. No one thumbed their nose, no one stared me up and down. Well, actually, that's a lie. There is this woman, a dean I believe, who has yet to  smile back. But, I think she's just snooty, nothing to do with me.

It's a beautiful school filled with all the new technology. I was even pleasantly surprised when I was directed to the Teachers' Lounge.

I walked into an actual room with four walls and a door. The hole I came from had a space in the main office, about 8 by 8. It is divided from the main by a row of lockers. There is no privacy.

The present school has about 8 computers, Macs and Pcs. The hole had 3 Pcs that still ran Windows 98.

The present school has black, comfy couches and chairs, several tables for group planning as well as chairs at each computer. The school I came from had a small, round table and a total of 7 chairs.

I can go on but the gist is this school seems to value their teaching staff. Where I came from made the room happen because contractually they had to abide, not because anyone cared. There are several underutilized rooms that could have been used as a Teachers' Lounge.

I do not know what is ahead for me in this ATR journey. Yesterday I checked my DOE email and found two mandatory interviews for this Thursday and Friday. Unfortunately, since I am presently appointed as a 7-9 English teacher, both are in Middle Schools. I want to continue my career in a High School.

I don't know how to go about doing this.....

All I'm sure of right this very minute is that I do not deserve this. I have devoted my life since the age of 21 to teaching. I am a caring and fair person and none of my actions throughout the years led to this.

One piece of advice to anyone who reads my story: It can happen to you!

No Clue How to Teach

I guess I shouldn't feel so bad. I guess every state is feeling it. Ms. Katie kinda said it so why repeat!


I have no idea how to teach this way 

Common Core. All Those in Favor....

The debate continues, but where there is money involved not much can be done by those of us who do not have it.

However, the fallout is being felt across America and parents are opting to home school their children. If my daughters were of school age, I'd be on the band wagon. As a teacher, I can inform parents as best I can but of course, there is the fear of retaliation.

In NYC, homeschooling is not a viable option. Most parents work and do not have the luxury to home school. Except some Networks in Manhattan, most parents cannot afford to have one parent stay at home to teach. Add to this the high number of single parents. Oh, and let's not forget, teenage mothers who are still themselves in school.

I found the following article informative:
Common Core Fallout: Homeschooling Rates Are Rising

What a Great Day!

Last week, I had one of the worst days of my teaching career. I was pushed by a student and my lesson was once again ripped apart. The principal rated my lesson and found everything developing and ineffective. The only effective I got was in classroom management.

I was told I do not have mastery of my subject matter as well as pedagogy. I also, according to her, do not know my students.

All this at the beginning of my day.

Period three, the students were completely out of control. They all came in as if they were out for recess. Then, a student who had never shown to my class decided to grace me with his presence. He first went off on my co teacher and then, saw two of his "besties" and they all came together like magnets. They began to high five each other, throw gang signs, and make some very weird noises.

This began a series of events that completely created chaos in the room. Mind you, there were three adults in the room and we could not get a handle on the situation.

I approached one student and tried to speak to him and he decided to tell me to "get the fuck out of my face." As if I was made out of steel, i continued to try and settle him down and he, once again told me to get the fuck out of his face.

I asked him to step outside so I could deal with him in private. He got up and walked out of the room and then just kept on walking.

I turned back into the room to continue to manage the room. I approached another student with whom I have never had an issue with. He, seeing that everyone was pretty much getting away with their disruptive behavior, decided to follow along and he too told me to get the fuck out of his face.

The next thing I know, the student stood up and came about two inches away from me. the student also towers over me so he was looking down at me.

His next directive was, "get the fuck out of my way."

I stood still; didn't move. I felt my face turning red as well as a warmth flushing my cheeks.

Once again, he said, "get the fuck out of my way."

When I didn't move he pushed through me, elbowing me in the process.

He turned around and walked out of the room.

All of this, and a lot more that I won't get into, happened last Tuesday. The student was in school the next day, and the next day, and the next. He was told to not go to my class. Friday, the parent came in, and without my presence had a meeting with the principal and AP. I was informed of this during my prep on Friday. At this time< I was also informed that Monday morning, the student, guidance counselor, AP, and myself would be meeting at 8 o'clock.

I have no idea what was discussed at the parent meeting nor do I have the slightest idea what we will discuss tomorrow. What I do know is that there were no consequences for the student or any of the students I wrote up that Tuesday.

Just another day at a Bronx High School.

The Beginning

Rather than go through everything from the beginning, I decided to post some of the letters that I have sent regarding the issues that I was experiencing. Once I reach the present, I will keep a daily log.

I have deleted the names of the persons involved, for the moment, since I am still trying to make things work. By the way, none of these letters have in any way helped. In fact, none have received a response, but I keep trying.

The UFT has been of no help; everything that I have managed to get resolved has been because I refuse to let this principal continue to create her own laws and continue her power trip. She is drunk with it and anyone who dares to question her practices just gets in her way. And, they pay. 

I am still paying.

                                                                                                                       2012

(Superintendent's name)

Superintendent District 12

Dear Superintendent,

     I am writing to you because I don’t know where else to turn. I am presently at (xxxx) High School under the supervision of (Principal's name). I have reached out to her and she has told me that she cannot help me.

     In July of 2011, I performed a demo lesson for Mr. (xxx), AP and Mr. (xxx), English Teacher. That afternoon, I was offered the job of 9^th grade English teacher at the school. I was very excited because I had tried teaching at the middle school level the year before, and realized that I preferred teaching the older students.

     I began in September teaching two English 1 classes, two English skills classes and one Honor’s English class. I was very happy to be in this school. The principal and AP seemed to be supportive and when it came to discipline problems, they seemed to be on top of things. I was able to walk into the Principal’s office and share my experiences and student work. Everything was going well, until…

     In October, the Principal and AP did a walk-through. That afternoon, the Principal and AP sat with me for a post observation and completely tore down my lesson. Not once did they say anything positive about my lesson! As I tried to explain myself and how English lessons are taught, they would hear nothing of it. I followed a lesson plan format that I have always used and the same one they hired me with. When I brought this to her attention she said, "No, here at (School name) we do things differently. You must follow the format we use and create a learning target and a criteria for success for every lesson." 

     I continued to express my thoughts and she said at one point,  “You frustrate me!” All through the post ob, I was intimidated and made to feel as if I didn't know what I was doing. (Principal) spoke to me loudly and coarsely and then threatened me with a U as a final rating for the year. She said that she would not recommend me for Tenure.

     At this, I quizzically looked at her and said, “I have tenure. What do you mean?” She became more upset and began saying how she was not going to go through this again. “I just went through this with a teacher who said she had tenure and she really didn't.” 

After this meeting, I was told to come back during my administrative period. I was so intimidated with our first meeting that Mr. (English teacher) offered to go in with me for support. 

     When we got to the door, she saw him and told him he couldn't stay. I expressed that I just wanted him there for support. She said, “Absolutely not!!” 

     For the next 40 minutes, I was intimidated, belittled, and treated as if I had no knowledge of English and teaching. She said she was holding me responsible for the kids who do not come to class and fail. I asked her for ideas on how I could possibly do this and she told me to be creative and figure it out. But, that she wanted to see those kids pass. 

     She sent me an email the next day. It was the Preliminary Recommendation page in the Tenure Notification System. She didn't appoint me under my High School license. This is where I am tenured. I explained this to her and she refused to acknowledge that a mistake was made.

     Since she was not willing to help me in this matter, I went to the union. This is when things really went bad between (Principal) and me. The union looked through the information and saw that a mistake was done. They said that not only was I teaching out of license, but that the school is out of compliance. They said (Principal) had two options: she could fix the mistake or she could excess me. This is when everything really deteriorated. I passed this information along to (Principal), who did not believe what I was saying and continued to tell me that there was nothing she could do. These conversations happened before the Christmas break.

     I tried to go on with my week and tried to speak with the (Principal) regarding the license issue. I tried several times until I caught her leaving her office and she told me that she had spoken to HR and they had said that there was nothing they could do about it. So, I asked her to excess me. She wrote me an email where she said that she understood if I wanted to go to another place. 

     I have not found any openings.

Sincerely,

(Me)

Second letter:

New superintendent. (I have no idea what happened to the first!)

(Superintendent's name)                                                                               2013

Superintendent D. 12

Dear Mr. (Superintendent),

     I am (Me). You extended my probation recently. I am writing to you to make some matters clear about me.

     I am a High School Tenured English teacher. I have been working for the DOE for 25 years. The bulk of my HS experience was in (xx) HS under (Principal) and then, (Principal).

     In the summer of 2009, I went to Arizona for a year. When I came back, I was hired at (MS-HS in Bronx). I was offered the 9^th grade ELA position but in September I was told that I would be teaching 6^th grade. When I expressed that this would affect my licensing (Principal) said she would have me on paper as the HS teacher since the 9^th grade teacher was a MS license. I figured it would be okay.

     In October, I found out that she had not done this and suddenly I found myself on probation for MS English. I reached out to several people including the union but to no avail. However, I was told that once I got a job at the HS level things would be fine.

     So, although I enjoyed working with the kids and parents (one actually wrote a letter of commendation to the Superintendent (xxx) and the Chancellor about me, I went on to the Open Market and was hired by (present school). I explicitly told the AP, (xxx) my situation and he said that there would be no issue and that I would be appointed under the HS license. Of course, this makes sense because I was hired by a HS.

     On my first informal walk-through in September, it explicitly said on my report “Tenured”. So, I didn't give it another thought. However, during a walk-through that they deemed “Unsatisfactory” I was threatened with a “U” rating because I was on probation. I explained how that could not be possible and that it must be a mistake. (Principal) said it wasn't. I asked her several times to please change my appointment to the proper license and she, on repeated occasions, told me she couldn't.

     This began a series of unannounced visits and several reprimands for a variety of things. I wrote to the Superintendent at the time and she never responded. I involved the union but to no avail.

     I was running a Drama Club after school and everything was fine. When I asserted myself regarding my situation, I was told on several occasions to cut the session short and leave the building. It happened so often that I finally cancelled the club. I was taken out of a Computer lab where the kids worked on Achieve 3000 because there were "claims" that my students were ruining the computers. And so on.

     Anyway, when I saw that all my lessons were being ripped apart and that I was being singled out, I told the Principal if she would release me or excess me. She said that she would not stand in my way but that she would not excess me. I used all of the information from NCLB and it didn't matter.

     I continued to be made to feel unwelcome at the school. When I was told that I would be getting another “U”, I grieved it. During this grievance meeting, I broke down and told (Principal and AP) how I felt. During this conversation, she made it clear that she could have changed my appointment but that she didn't want to. She wasn't sure if she wanted me in the school. However, I was reassured that I would not be discontinued, but that a “U” was in my future. So I asked again that I receive Pre and Post Observations, and I finally did. I received an S. Then came a walk-through and again I received an S. (Principal) softened somewhat and actually started speaking to me and saying good morning. I thought it was over.

     Then came time for the Tenure process and she said you advised her that my probation should be extended. So, she told me she needed to observe me again. She walked in on April 26. She saw the same elements for which I had been previously rated “S”. She rated the Walk-through “U”.

     I am being scrutinized and singled out. I come to work wondering what they will point out next. Although they claim to merely suggest elements they want in a lesson, they really expect them. I have incorporated everything they have asked of me and it doesn't matter.          I learned an entirely new way of presenting the lesson using the Learning Target and Criteria for Learning. Instead of seeing the progress, they focus on something else. They expect to see a group activity for every single lesson. So, even though every lesson does not lend itself to this practice, I reworked my lessons and do group and pair work. So now they find faults in that. I introduced Accountable Talk; she criticized my last lesson for too much accountable talk. They question the students and if one says they are working independently, they use it against me. Some kids prefer to work independently even when asked to pair up. That’s differentiation! Why am I being rated unsatisfactorily?  

     I am so frustrated. I get nervous every time they walk into my room. I feel harassed. I feel they are setting me up to receive a “U” rating at the end of this year. I really feel this is personal and I wish I didn't. I will go to another school, but who will hire me with a “U”? And, I do not want to ruin my 25 years of satisfactory service unfairly. What does this say of my former administrators who have, year in and year out, rated me “S” and placed me in positions of leadership? I have created curricula for electives, been a mentor, created programs and ran them successfully. I have been a Peer Mediator for an entire school campus. It doesn't seem possible that I am in this situation!

     I would like to meet with you regarding my situation.

Sincerely,

(Me)

It is the year 2014 and I am still awaiting a response to both these letters.

In my next post, I will share the letters I sent to the Chancellor. I actually just sent one to the new chancellor, two weeks ago. I haven't received ay correspondence.